There is nothing really fun about waiting. I know everyone of you understand what I’m talking about. All of us have spent time in the “waiting room”…whether it’s waiting for a job, a job change, a decision someone needs to make that will affect you, a potential spouse to come into your horizon, children to fill your home, wayward kids to come home, an adoption referral, a doctor’s report, an offer on a home you are crazy about to be accepted, a loved one to come to Christ, a buyer for your home, a heart to change, a spouse to be willing to adopt, a boss to leave, a word from the Lord, or a myriad of other things….
And here I am waiting for a doctor’s report. Will the biopsy be malignant? The doctor said when the sono tech was getting my thyroid into view, “Wow. Your thyroid looks really ______”….I can’t remember now what word he used, but it was something like “yuky”.
Then he turned to the sono tech and said, “What do you think?” She didn’t even hesitate in responding, “Oh boy. It sure does look ______.” {Echoing the doctor’s words.} Then she leaned toward me and nervously laughed, “I guess I shouldn’t have jumped on that so quickly, it didn’t make it sound very good, did it?” Ummm. No. Not really.
I asked the doc what he meant by that and he said, “It looks like you have had Hashimoto’s Disease for a really, really long time. Your thyroid doesn’t look good.” Hmmmm.
We lost our health insurance yesterday. It’s a long story, but we did. Many of you don’t have health insurance either. We found out a couple of weeks ago that we were losing it. So I went to our primary doctor, who is very sweet. I asked her if she could please prescribe physical therapy for the Rheumatoid. I know I have had RA for a long time, but I just felt that maybe a professional physical therapist could give me a clue how to keep my joints as healthy as possible with movements that would work with my joints not against my joints. She was more than happy to give me a script for that.
So this past week I was able to go twice. On Thursday, I met, for the first time, this sweet young girl, whose name was Lizzie. She asked what brought me to her. I started to talk and pretty much sobbed through the next few minutes, trying to tell her what I needed from her. Yeah. That’s totally not me.
Anyway, I promised myself that this blog would be filled with integrity and real life {at least my life}. And so here I am opening up about waiting. And even though the biopsy was just last Wednesday, truthfully I’ve really been waiting since May, when she first called me into her office to say that something was really wrong. And I’m ready to get on with it. Just shoot straight. Let’s get this done. Let’s figure it out and move on. I don’t have time to dilly-dally. I am so ready to get this over with.
While I wait, I have been taking pictures. Jackie, you asked…and my camera is a SONY Cyber-shot. It’s a 10.1 pixel, little hand held deal. I can slip it in my pocket. It takes nice pictures, but is unable to capture action shots too well, because of the slow shutter speed I guess {although I am camera-illiterate, to be sure!}
Anyway, last week-end when our friend Stuart was here, he, Dw and I took a hike up into the mountains. It was beautiful. Absolutely breathtaking. While there I captured some pictures that I was so tickled at, I just couldn’t even believe that I took them. I have been praying that the Lord would help me capture some sweet stuff….and here are some of the ones I took….drink in the beauty of God’s handiwork……
Sweet, sweet friend, know that I'm praying. Your photography is amazing!! And I think I'll jump on a jet plane and head to your house for hot fudge sundaes. Sounds pretty scrumptious to me. Hugs and love
Praying that God will give you another situation in which you will post early this week, "Yippee Jesus and Praise to our Awe- Inspiring, Gasp-giving, Mountain-Moving, Miracle Working, HEALING!, God
Hope you all enjoyed the Sundaes!
All I can say is I am thinking about you and praying for you. Thank you for sharing your life with us, all of it, not just the sweet moments. I hope sharing with all of us helps you and you know how much you mean to so many people.
Enjoy those sundays, your kids will remember it always!
Praying for you Linny! You are a bright light in a dark world to be sure:)! Can't wait to see what our God is going to do through you in the days ahead!
That butterfly shot is stunning! And I'm so sorry about the health insurance. I've not had any for 5 years and it is a major fear in my life.
Waiting for test results is so hard…I did it too often earlier this year. But as you know, we do not wait alone. God waits with us and He has a firm grip on us! Your life is in His hands ~
Jer. 29:11,12 comes to mind. Wrapping you in prayer this night for healing Linny. For God's healing touch to work mightily in you, making every cell in your body healthy…giving you strength…filling you to overflowing with His deep abiding love and amazing power. God bless and keep you.
Hi Sweet Lady, I am sure that it is very hard to wait!! I don't think that the people in the medical field know that you are latching onto *every word* that they say at that point… praise the Lord that you have Him to run to for security. I have seen many who either don't have this or don't take advantage of their direct line to our Creator and God, and fall into a "pit" of misery, despair, and self-pity.
I know that it would be hard for me to wait, too, but I appreciate your positive spirit. 🙂
I'm praying that the Lord will fill you with His peace and His presence and that He will provide a new source of insurance. Hang in there!
Oh sweet, sweet Linny. First, I want to say that I am continuing to pray for you and your sweet family. Secondly, thank you so much for posting this tonight. Honestly, I've been having a bummer night, mostly frustrated with the fact that I so want to be a mama, but I am still waiting on God to say that it's time… all while I watch others around my age adopt kids or even get married and have bio kids. And as I was just driving home from Target (I wander around stores sometimes when I'm not in the best of moods), frustrated, hurting, and a ton of other emotions, I prayed that He would send me some kind of encouragement… and I came home to this. And He even had you mention 2 of the things that have me "sitting in the waiting room" right now. So, thanks. And those pictures are beautiful. I love daisies, too. 🙂
More camera questions. So, since you have active little children around, is there a camera you would rather have? A camera that takes better action shots? LOVE the bumblebee.
OK, forst of all is DW pooping his pans or squatting to fart in that picture? 🙂
I'm sorry about your insurance, we are about to lose ours too but trying not to stress over it.
Praying, praying that the tests come back good.
OK, those are totally amazing pictures and I wish I could have them for my pendant. I have the same camera and LOVE it.
Night my friend!
I swear, you impact my life with just about every post….I think it's just the 'total package.' Seeing what a godly woman you are through joy and tribulations, and relishing in the 'little things' of life that aren't really so little, makes me strive to be a better witness, wife and mom.
thanks
Praying for you as you wait.
Sarah
A Hillsong concert, how exciting! I go to church at Hillsong London, and I prayed for you today 🙂
I know that waiting is hard, but never forget that all things work together for good for those who love God. (see Romans 8:28)
Keep praising Him, through the good times and the bad times. Keep trusting Him. Whenever things get us worried or anxious, He reminds us to simply be still, and know that He is God. And He has plans for you, plans for good and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope. He loves you and wants you to know that no weapons forged against you will prevail.
So in your waiting, just be still, and know that He is God.
Praying Dearest Linny!
sweet Linny,
Am lifting you up in prayer right now. So sorry that i haven't been tuned in much lately. With a new little one home, (Yippee Jesus!!!) getting online isn't always easy.
I think of you daily, and pray for you more often. 🙂
Let us know if there is ANYTHING else we can do.
Love you,
Alycia
p.s. Awe-inspiring photos!!! U R the bomb! 😉
Hugs! I'm praying for you!
~Rebecca
when will you find out the results? praying for you! thanks for sharing your heart with us! beautiful pics btw!
Praying for you, Linny. My family has gone through the waiting on biopsys alot in the last 4 four months: my almost dieing in March, Bill's biopsy for melanoma, I just had one on my right breast, and am having one on my uterus at in August. The waiting is horrible. I hate when the fear begins to take over my body. I can feel it spreading through me. Recently I have prayed to our Father to fill me with peace while I wait. It has been amazing. Peace just overcomes me and even if I try, I can't bring up thoughts about what I am waiting for. It is like He just blocks all thoughts of the biopsy results from me. I hope that makes sense to you. You have meant so much to me and I have spent alot of time thinking of you and praying for you this weekend. "Lord, please bring peace to dear Linny as she waits. Help her feel your presence and clear her thoughts of anything that would worry her."
Thank you so much for the pictures. God blessed you with a bouquet of wild flowers and you shared them with us.
Some people turn lemons into lemonade, but only you could turn a yucky thyroid and RA into hot fudge sundaes. The best part is that God can make beauty from ashes.
I LOVE your new photos. You captured some amazing shots.
Waiting with you and praying for you!
Much Love,
Kathie
I like your menu for supper!! Will pray for good news from the doctor. We lost our health insurance last Dec. We were finally able to get the kids on our state low-income health insurance plan this summer, but my hubby and I are still insurance-less. We will probably be able to get back on (hopefully!) this Dec. I have to say God has been watching out for us as we have been healthy this whole year. Praise God!! I pray that you will also be able to get on some health insurance soon.
Carrie
Linny…
I knew it, I knew it, I knew It… we ARE kindred spirits! I just can't type fast enough. I love any kind of "dinner" much to my dear, dear David's dismay… to the point of being completely incorrigible… whenever we go on photo shoots with my darling son's 4H photography group or I guess any where for that matter I, too, am to be found lagging far behind enjoying beautiful gifts of nature w/ or w/out my camera… usually flowers… trees, leaves, streams waterfalls… etc.,
You, my dear, are the best! You have the butterfly AND the bee. AWESOME! I am impressed.
Dear lady, have a restful sleep. Remember Jesus is with you as you wait. Praying for you and with you continually.
Barbara Lyman 🙂
Marysville, WA
Praying for our Lord to sustain you and carry you as you wait… Praying for him to fill you with His peace… His mercies are new every morning…
I am praying for you right now Linny!
Sara
Loved the photo of the butterfly on flower, stunning photo of YHWH's creation, so beautuiful!!! 🙂
So sorry to hear about the waiting on your thyroid gland, but glad that you are surrounded with people that you love, and making special memories with them 🙂
I'm also waiting too… really don't know what to do on my part.
Love the pics! BEEE-U-TI-FUL!
Praying for answers today! Good answers! Sheri
Awww, Linny! You are enduring so much right now… so beautifully! I know it must be so hard, but you are GLORIFYING Him in how you carry on and continue to focus on Him 🙂 Thank you for your transparency, I am certain you are a huge encouragement to many enduring similar trials…
Sending BIG hugs to you! Wish I was there to enjoy a sundae with you and your beautiful family 🙂
I think the Lord accomplishes so much in our time in the waiting room. I think He can reveal a lot to ourselves about our heart condition. What a great opportunity to trust in Him and to wait patiently for His timing! Trust me, I am in no way a fan of waiting (by nature) but God has been showing me that He has a plan in waiting. Just think of all of your moments of waiting during your Memorial Monday stories. Now that you know the end of those stories, it's easy to forget the struggle in waiting. But, He is faithful! Psalm 33:16-22 "The king is not saved by a mighty army; a warrior is not delivered by great strength. A horse is a false hope for victory; nor does it deliver anyone by its great strength. Behold, the eye of the Lord is on those who fear Him, on those who hope for His lovingkindness, to deliver their soul from death, and to keep them alive in famine. Our soul waits for the Lord; He is our help and our shield. For our heart rejoices in Him, because we trust in His holy name. Let thy lovingkindness, O Lord, be upon us, according as we have hoped in Thee." Matthew Henry's commentary on this passage (the entire chapter) was amazing if you have some time to look it up! Will be praying for you.
Linny,
once again I find my true self revealed in your words of honesty!! Thank you for being a "real' woman of God–one who is filled with faith, hope, and assurance that HIS WORD prevails but struggles at times too. I know you walk in the revelation that HE SENT HIS WORD AND HEALED THEM ALL and you dear Linny,devoted wife of Dwight and mother of many are part of that ALL!!! Every thing that is named must bow it's knee to the name of JESUS!!!! So Hashimoto,RA,tumors and anything else that would like to come against you must BOW TO THAT NAME!!!
Continuing to pray for you for my own very selfish reasons as I so need another woman in my life that gets being a mother is a life long joy and blessing!!
Linny, I love your pictures, and I love your honesty. Praying for you and yours at this time.
Praying for you and your family. Thanks for your honesty. It helps inspire your readers not to make excuses. We change from saying, "Well she can do all that because she is not dealing with ________" to "If she can do all that while dealing with her situation, than I can do it too!"
Absolutly Amazing,Beautiful pictures!!! Wow! Thank you for sharing. The daisies happen to be one of my most favorite flower too. Actually any flower that even resembles a daisey, and I would take wild flowers any day.
I like to think of myself as being patient in most things EXCEPT waiting. I will be praying for you Linny. Praying that you will recieve your call today, and that God would embrace you.
Praying for you all.
Love the beautiful pictures! Praying for you sweet Linny..Wish I could live there with you!
Wow! What beautiful flowers! We have the same ones in our garden – three of those are my favorite! The daisies quit blooming the middle of June but the black-eyed-susans and cone flowers continue until frost. Buttercups would not do well here.
My dear friend has had her thyroid removed and it contained cancer. She finds out the 'plan' or next step on Thursday. As she puts it, "God guided the Doctor to remove the thyroid, so I no longer 'have' cancer." Yes, she knows what may be down the road. It is in God's hands.
I pray that your results have an easy fix! God is guiding the Doctors. He has provided them with the ability. "Do not fear, for I am with you."
Linny,
I too am in a season of waiting, and the other day God showed me that waiting is tied to strength and endurance for whatever plans God has for us in the future through Is. 40:31. "But they that wait upon the LORD shall renew [their] strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; [and] they shall walk, and not faint."
Praying for you.
Julie
I have your site bookmarked and have only just logged on after being gone for a bit and was so surprised to read ~ my prayers are for your family and you tonight. I look to you for inspiration and love your biblical wisdom ~ thank you for sharing and inspiring; in the midst of your struggles we all find strength in your words of faithfulness.
P.S. The Mountains post (7-31-10) is one of my favorites with all of your beautiful pictures 🙂