Dumbfounded and sobered.
The only two words I could think to put how
we felt after talking to the doctor.
I know, I know:
How can we be dumbfounded when we are children
of the Most High God?
How can we be dumbfounded when we saw Almighty God provide every, single step of the way for our precious Karl?
How can we be dumbfounded when we
know that He loves our once-orphan-turned-daughter so much?
Yet we are.
Maybe because we are so human?
Perhaps because we really only comprehend
His power with such limited ability.
Or maybe because we can sometimes feel like there are only so many miracles that God will do for us…
and then He/we will run out of any more.
{So not true, I know. But come on bloggy friends, if I have felt that way,
I know you must have too.}
And so that is probably why we are so completely
in awe of what He did today.
*****
Many of you know what I mean, when I say, the instant the surgical wing doors opened and we saw the surgeon coming out, we began searching his face for clues. He looked sobered.
We hurried to him.
He said, “Okay, let me tell you first about the right side…..we found no evidence of a tumor. There was some infection, but we cleaned that out.” {There was thought to be a tumor on both sides after reading the CT scans… and there was also lots of infection.}
We looked at him.
He was sooooo serious.
Then he said, “Now on the left side, there was no tumor either. {WHAT? No Tumor? Seriously??} But there was a very, very bad infection. It had eaten her mastoid bone from under her ear all the way up and around her ear to way above her ear and almost to her brain. I’d say, there was maybe one millimeter separating the infection from Jubilee’s brain. Maybe one millimeter…..”
{The doctor was very sobered.
It was so very close.}
We both looked shocked, I’m sure.
“You mean there was no tumor?”
“There was no tumor.”
“Really?”
“Really.
But the infection was so close to her brain.
So close.
We have to watch her closely….and she will
probably never really have hearing on her left side….”
We are dumbfounded.
Almighty God does it again
{and again and again and again}.
Our sweet bloggy friend Jo Moseley wrote on our FB wall today that she was praying for a miracle. Well Jo, we have a real life miracle {again!} and we are humbled beyond words. We both are in shock. We have cried and actually feel like wailing deep sobs from the depths of our soul at the relief.
There was no tumor on either side!!
and the infection was
soooo close – it was just about to her brain.
about 1 millimeter {a grain of salt} away
Get your yardstick out and look to see how big a millimeter is.
It says a grain of salt is 1 millimeter.
Think about it – from under her ear, the infection had eaten it’s way for inches where it was found today to be within one millimeter of Jubilee’s brain up near the top of her head
No wonder the urgency to get it out!
I was thinking as I have been watching Jubilee sleeping:
163 million kids waiting for a mommy and daddy.
Many with health issues.
If Jubilee were still in the orphanage in China she eventually would die in a Chinese orphanage {probably in the not-so-distant future}. But instead, God allowed us the privilege of being her mommy and daddy and then a doctor to catch this situation in time to do the necessary surgery that would bring health and healing to Jubilee and ultimately praise to His name!!
We are so humbed that
Our miracle-working,
mountain-moving,
awe-inspiring,
gasp-giving God
would move the mountains He has
to heal our Jubilee Promise.
We will never stop praising His name!
Rejoice with us!
No tumors and about 1 millimeter!
A miracle!
Only God.
and
ONLY
HIM.
Rejoicing with you. Praise the Lord for this miracle!
Only God!! You have me in tears. What a miracle working God we serve. I so needed to see this today. You won't ever know just how much. Hugs and love
Praising God with you! Only God!
that is amazing! I am glad they were able to get rid of the infection. What incredible timing!
Sending lots of prayers and hugs to Jubilee and the rest of the family.
Heather
Praising God for this wonderful news! I have been praying for her and am so glad to hear the results.
God is so great. What a miracle. Praying for a very past and hopefully not much pain for Jubilee!
God Bless <3
-Kirstie Bikakis
Only God!!! Rejoicing at His miraculous hand. Rest up, sweet Jubilee!
~Kelly
PRAISE GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!
NO WAY!!!!! WOW…praising our amazing God with you!!
I hope Jubilee is feeling better soon! I think you should put a meter measuring tape in your memorial box and highlight 1 milimeter…Wow.
So happy for you guys!
Shanna
WOW,don't have the words to describe the way I'm feeling after reading this post! Am so happy and surprised! It is such a blessing to be able to read your blog and witness miracles. I was only thinking WHY thiswith Miss Jubilee aswell as all other stuff going on in your family. Can go to bed now! Still PRAYING for you ALl. Good night from England
oh wonderful, wonderful wonderful!!! my love and hugs to you all xxxxx
I want to read this to Peter but I know I won't be able to get through it.
I can't even see the keys as I'm trying to type this.
A miracle it was today! A miracle for Jubilee and for all of us too. A day to see the power of God. I can only shake my head in amazement.
AWESOME!!!!!! No other words!
Praise God!
Yeah God!!!!!!
Yesss! Thank you Jesus!
Oh Praise the Lord! Haven't I heard you say 'God of the last minute'! before….well that certainly applies here! 1 milimeter, that's just crazy. That's just like God to let it be oh so close so that we can marvel at the miracle. I love how that seems to work, but hopefully your family can have a rest for a while from being the example of it! Such great news Linny!!
Wow! God is amazing!
Yess!! Thank you Jesus!!!
Oh. My. Goodness. Any idea what caused the infection? What a wonderful surprise! I'm at my computer at work with tears streaming down my face. So happy for Jubilee and for your family. Praise GOD!
Wow! Amazing God. Thank you for sharing how the surgery went. We'll continue to pray as Jubilee recovers from the surgery and the infection. Praise His Wonderful Name!!
Linny:
What wonderful! Awesome! news. I've been praying and checking off and on throughout the day.Our Sam is deaf in his left ear.If you want to talk my email is rayswithhim@centurytel.net
Leveta
Praising God with you Linny! He is so so faithful!!!
Brooke
http://www.TheAnnessaFamily.blogspot.com
REJOICING!
REJOICING!
REJOICING ih His goodness!
Thank you Jesus for Your miracle on behalf of Your sweet little lamb, Jubilee Promise!
Rejoicing in Texas!
Tina
Praise God!! Those "tumors" were His way of orchestrating events so the right doctor could find that infection and treat her. I am doing a happy dance for you all in front of my computer!! Still praying the infection heals quickly!!
Joel and I are crying right with you Linny and Dw. Amazing grace…amazing miracles!!!!!! Giving thanks and praise for Jubilee and praying for complete and full recovery for her. In the name of Jesus….To God be the glory….
Thank Heavens, literally. So very glad for her miracle.
PRAISE THE LORD!!
Yes, Him and ONLY Him!!! Just jumping for joy that He provided… with only a millimeter to spare! He is NEVER late, is He?!?
Will be praying for your precious Jubilee as she recovers and becomes HEALTHY… yay for no more infection!!! And YAY for NO TUMOR!!!!
WOW!!! Only GOD!!!!
Praise God!
Rejoicing with major tears…Praise God!
Oh my goodness!!! Praise God for no infections and for providing so well for miss Jubilee. Can we talk about the perfect timing of God!
Praising, Linny… praising right with ya!!
Praise God!!!!!! I am wondering if it started as a cholesteotoma? Ask the Dr.(we have miracle story of our own about that!) I am praising God for all he continues to do each and every day, even when we cant comprehend how BIG he really is……
I am in tears. God, there is truly NONE like you! Can any of us truly comprehend Your power, Your might, Your glory???!!??
Thank You Father that You have displayed Your glory for ALL to see in the life of this tiny treasure named Jubilee!!!!!!!!!!!! Lord, please don't let anyone at that hospital, nor anyone reading this post, nor anyone who hears this story walk away without AWE of YOU. Use this Lord…draw the lost and the hurting and those who are ready to give up hope…to YOU and show them Your love. Open their eyes to the wonders You have done and ARE STILL DOING!!
We love you Lord and are just so humbled to get to witness Your faithfulness again and again!
Celebrating and praising God with you!!
Praise the Lord! Halleluyah! Continuing pray for Jubilee to be healed.
Hallelujah!
I am screaming inside over here!! I was just praying yesterday that there would be NO tumor when they opened her up (I'm sure I was not the only one praying that way!!) How awesome is our God?! WOW!!
Love,
Rory
i am so happy, God is such a miracle worker So glad to hear the great news!! I will keep her in my prayers as she recovers from surgery!! So glad you guys could give her the loving home that she deserves and that was meant for her!!!
Whooohooo! He did it again! Thank you Jesus! =)
Praising God and rejoicing with you!!
What a beautiful millimeter that must have been!!
Blessings,
Jenn
That is truly amazing…. Only God! Thank You for sharing a miracle with us.
I have been praying all day for sweet Jubilee. That is truly amazing. Our God does it again!!!!
The most amazing story you have told here! So many phrases come to mind: every little bit counts (as large adoptive families how often do we use that phrase? When packing food and we scrape that last bit in a container for tomorrow. When fund raising and one of our littles offers a few pennies. Now, Jubilee has offered a very concrete example. First time I haven't seen her smiling. Have a feeling she will smile soon…she just seems like that kind of girl!–Elaine
Linny, we had prayed yesterday that when they operated today they would find no tumor!
None!
Wow!
Shoutin!!!!
Hallelujah!!!!
Thank you, Jesus!!! I will rejoice at what He has done…and keep praying for little Jubilee.
Rejoicing with you!!! Only God!!! There is no one like our God!!
Wow! What a breath-taking post! What a gasp-giving God! I prayed that there would be no tumors, but you know, sometimes we pray something and don't really-honestly-deep-down expect it to happen. But God did it!!! Praise God! and praise Him that this infection was found before it touched the brain! How amazing is that? I can hardly think about it. "Sobering" is a good word. May God continue to bless you and all in your family, and may He continue to bring healing to Karl as well, and to take care of Ruby Grace. Mercy, mercy, you have a lot on your plate, Linny. Praying for YOU!
I LOVE reading your posts!! I am so happy and excited for you all. Praise the Lord, He is awesome!!!!!
I love how God loves to keep surprising us! Wonderful news!! To Him be the glory.
Only GOD! Praising Him for all he has done, so thankful for his power! Thank you Jesus!!! Praying the infection will clear fast!!
Oh Linny, I am crying tears of joy and relief with you!!! He is SO SO GOOD! HE IS GOD! I join you in praise of our miracle working Physician!
crying tears of joy with you!!! oh PRAISE the LORD!!!!!
Praise God!!!! Kiss that precious daughter of yours from The Cushen family please and know we will be praying for a speedy recovery with no return of the infection.
I can only say WOW!!! What a testimony to God's mercy. So thankful for you and Jubilee.
cmnana
Praising and thanking God in Iowa!
Margy
Praise God for your miracle!
Thank you, thank you Jesus!!!
Only God!! Praising with your sweet news! Now to bring the rest of your children home!
Wow!! I would be numb too:) Miss Jubilee has quite the calling on her life. Thanking God with you for the awesome miracles!
Amazing Sweet Friend! Praise God! He is goooood!
Praise the Lord Jesus! I am thrilled there were no tumors and the infection didn't reach the brain. Here are my thoughts as I read your post tonight… I realize the doctors can not give Jubilee her hearing…But they are not God. Why stop at their prognosis but believe the God, the creator and maker of her body, Who sent His Son Jesus to do all that He saw His Father doing, and one of the things He saw was healing since the gospels are filled with healing accounts. Why not dare to take God at His Word, agree with Him and pray and believe for Jubilee's complete healing? Why agree with the doctors?
I am crying as I read your post! God is so GOOD!! That doesn't come close to saying what I feel but He is such an awesome loving Father!! Praising Him with you and continuing to pray for quick healing of all infection! ~Lisa
Rejoicing with all of you! Only God! Absolutely incredible!
That is what I think it is, we are human, so in some ways maybe we just have no scope of His awesome power, at least not a broad enough view…I know for a fact that He delights in blowing us away when He answers prayer…He delights in not only answering but in such a way that is so awesome we could have never dreamed it up ourselves, and He loves to see our reaction to it and loves how it draws us even closer to his side.
xoxoxo
Wow. Talk about an amazing story. Made me tear up at just the amazing power of our mighty God. So thrilled for you that this was the outcome. You are blessed.
Praise God!!! That is all I can say!!! I have been feeling the same way. I have run out of miracles, but thank you for reminding me again how much God loves me and He does not count the number of miracles and then say STOP!!! I am waiting patiently for our miracles but I know they are coming!! Your Ruby Grace is going to be yet again another miracle.
Just like Karl's "Sacred Ground", the timing of every detail, each person, each prayer, each and every step was critical for his survival! From beginning the necessary treatment on the side of the road, every step needed for the recovery of his delicate brain, He Provided. A series of Miracles!
Jubilee has a "Sacred Ground", a Miracle story just waiting to be told. I am in awe at what He has in store for this little girl!
A.N.O.T.H.E.R MIRACLE! HE Answers Prayers, Oh Yes, He Does! And, Baby Girl NEEDED a Miracle! As a former Pediatric nurse, I know that Jubilee "should" have been in major pain! She "should" have had symptoms of a massive infection! But, She Did Not! He protected not only her Brain, but also He kept this little girl, symptom free. He protected her from severe pain. He LOVES this Girl! And, in HIS Perfect Timing, a routine CT scan, prior to a surgery for an implant, revealed "tumors". Tumors that turned out to be an infection that could have taken her life!
I Love Our God!
Dwight & Linny~ We farm & I have been in the tractor all day today. As is often the case, I seem to take on some kind of prayer vigil…in the monotony of "back & forth, back & forth"…that's farming for you. Today my mind & prayers were on Jubilee…so when I was done & came in to get the update…amazing! God is amazing! Thanks for updating & allowing us to share in the miracle. I'm anxious for the day we meet your family…in reuniting our RH kids! Rest well, friends…you're right in the palm of God's hand!
Awesome! Awesome! Awesome! I am totally in awe of Him! Thanks for sharing this great news! Another evidence of miracle working God's love and grace.
Rejoicing with you! Praise be to God! Only God could do this! Thank you Jesus for this miracle!
I will bless the Lord at all times, His praise shall continually be on my lips!" Psalm 34-
Praising God over the great report and God's perfect timing for Jubilee's surgery and praying for a very speedy recovery.
bee blessed
mary
Oh, Linny – I'm in tears. Thank you Heavenly Father for taking such loving care of precious Jubilee. I have been praying all day long – and my prayers will continue. God bless and be with your beautiful girl – and with each one of you. xoxoxo
Wow, what an awesome outcome. Praising God through my tears of joy. So happy to hear the wonderful news.
Tamara Michel
OH LINNY!!!!!!!!!!!
I am in AWE of HIM! Thank you Jesus for your tender mercy in Jubilee's life…for how You are moving in people's hearts through this precious child!
I don't know how i found your blog, but I am super glad I did. I am just in awe of the amazing ways God is using your family. Thanks for encouragement and for inspiring others. Wow! Praise God for Jubilee!
Oh Linny,
I am rejoicing with yall at what our great lord and savior has done.
You are so right about how he saved her by bringing her to the U.S.
God is just so good…………
I know you must be incredibly relieved but totally amazed, God always leaves no doubt as to the fact that He was the one that did it.
Praise God from whom all blessings flow. Will continue to pray for complete and quick recovery, and while we are at it why not for hearing as well.
Blessings dear family,
Nellie
Tears in my eyes, rejoicing with you! Miracle, total miracle!
Just one of those silent blog readers praying, praising and saying "Amen!" Jubilee is so precious and her smile just touches me so deep with every picture of her!
Jeunesse
Rejoicing with you all over the news about Jubilee's health and praising our mighty God!
Love in Christ,
janet, kevin, ted,philip, eli, and sophia yilin
so very good…He is so very good…praising our wonderful God with you tonight!!!
Giving God Praise and thanks tonight fo rJulilee's miracle. Thank-you Lord Jesus the Great Physician!!!! I am tearful in sharing your great miraculous story as I read this. Much love, Ellen
PRAISE THE LORD!! 🙂
Praise the Sweet Name of Jesus! Precious Jubilee, we are so thankful for God's grace over you today.
WOW! WOW! WOW! I KNOW YOUR GOD!!!!!!! Praise HIM!!!! Read the post outload to MY Dear as we praise HIM with you!!!
Wow! I am always so amazed at the things God does! Praising His Holy Name for your sweet Jubilee PROMISE!!! Once again…He gave you a PROMISE…a PROMISE that she/we are safe in HIS ARMS! God Bless you all! Such a miracle and you are right…only GOD! Really…I mean…how can so many tests and scans be so wrong…ONLY HIM! Praying for continual and complete healing! God Bless!
We praise god with you!!! Amazing…
Sweet Linny, I am sitting here shaking my head in awe. I am speechless. That photo breaks my heart. Precious baby girl. Praising Jesus and thanking Him so much for choosing you to be her beautiful family – for rescuing her and healing her! Praise You, Lord!
The world seems such a chaotic place sometimes, but God has such an amazing orderly way – placing Jubilee in your home and getting her the help she needed. So many things had to fall into place. Pretty awesome! So glad there were no tumors and the infection was removed! God bless that sweet little girl and your whole wonderful family!
I feel honored to be a prayer warrior alongside this. Praise the Lord! He is Mighty to save and defender of the defenseless!!!!!!!!
Praise You Father for your awesome wonders and miracles! Thanks for sharing–I too think surely the Lord has given me all the miracles He can. With tears of praise and thanksgiving, I am in awe!
Julie in Kansas
Worthy is the Lamb!!!that is the song that played while I read what you had posted. Worthy of all our praise. I worship you Lord for your great love, mercy, and goodness! I'm in awe of God once again. Praising the Lord with you!
PRAISE THE LORD!! PRAISE THE LORD!! PRAISE THE LORD!!!!!!!!!!!
I'm sitting here with tears in my eyes reading your post! I love to read about miracles…and how HIS timing is always so mysterious, but yet PERFECT!
Jubliee will be in my prayers for a speedy recovery.
Hugs from Florida,
Barbara
PRAISE HIM!
God is so good. Overwhelmed with gratitude for how He puts the lonely in families (and preserves their lives!)
Prayers for healing for her, for God to continue to be glorified in all this.
Wonderful news! Praise God.
wow…I was just checking in on her. I love God so much for who He is and all the He does…in the big an in the small. No detail is left out (especially thinking of Karl)
Simply amazing…when it should be just old hat, right!?
Rejoicing with your family and praying at the same time!
Just wow! Rejoicing & Praising God with you!
Praising God for the good news!!! So glad our God is in the business of miracles!!
Big smile on my face this morning, as I read your blog and sip my coffee. And Praise our Papa in heaven.
REJOICING REJOICING REJOICING!!! GOD IS SO STINKIN' GOOD TO US!!!!
Blessings my friend,
Suzanne
freedom Hollow Farmgirl
Oh JOY, JOY, JOY!!!!! What an amazing God we serve. Fasted and prayed for your sweet girl and so happy to hear this news. Now to get those sisters home. Love you guys! L
HA-LE-LU-JAH! OUR GOD IS AN AWESOME GOD! May we continue to be amazed! Thanking Jesus for your miracle and praying for all the others that are waiting for a Mom and Dad like you two.
God Bless you and your family!
Wow, just wow.
I just can't help thinking about poor Jubilee going so long with such an infection in her head. I sure hope she did not feel the pain.
Praising God with you!! Sheri
crying. . .thank you Lord. Thank you.
God is amazing and I am always left in awe when I see His hand move. So happy for Jubilee … and, of course for you! 🙂
Praising the Lord for His Amazing Miracles! Jubilee is such a precious gift from God. Rejoicing with you all…
WOW! WOW! WOW!
It seems a weak statement, but I mean it with all my heart – YAY GOD!! Will continue to pray for complete healing of the infection and a very swift recovery.
Lynda
Goosebumps allover,
my oh my i recognise myself in the part were you might have thought to be out of wonders but … NO WAY!!!!!!
Jubilee Promise…. a promise of LIFE, from her loving FATHER!
Tears of joy,
Adriana
WOW! Praising His Name for this INCREDIBLE miracle!!! Words don't even suffice. Celebrating with you!!
Tears and praises…I wish I could hug you all and hold her sweet hand..precious baby. So thankful. Go God you continue to do the unthinkable for us all the time…
Praise God!!! I had tears reading your post. Praying for her recovery and that she would be healed.
Yes, He is a wonderful God. Praise you Father! Jubilee looks so beautiful lying there asleep. I think that baby doll needs a bandage on her ears too though. Might make Jubilee feel better. Will continue to pray that God will protect and heal our baby girl. Aunt Martha loves you Jubilee.
PRAISING JESUS WITH YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D:D:D:D:D:D
AMAZING! So happy for you all! PTL!
God is so good!
Prayers continue for Jubilee's complete healing.
Bless you and your family and thank you for sharing your journey with us!
Awesome news that she doesn't have the tumors but even more awesome that this led to something so serious that you would never have known about!
My mom had that surgery on both her ears to clean and rebuild the bones in her ears. She suffered from a ton of ear infections that just destroyed her bones and hearing. She was so close to not having that barrier to stop the infection from getting into her brain.
Yet again humbled by God's mercy and blessings and miracles.
Thank You Jesus! Janet
So So Grateful! I wonder if the infection was very painful and could Jubilee explain to you her pain?
Thanking God for his generous mercy!
I love Yippee Jesus! No other better words. Thank ful for your answers to prayer.
So glad to hear that the doctors wer able to get the infection out in time, halleluyah! may Jubilee continue to be healed fully from the surgery.
I am back home now. 🙂
Rejoicing with you! Truly we have such a loving and miracle working God! His love is so great!
Wow. That is fantastic! Praise God!
PRAISE YOU JESUS!!! <><
Linny ~ I seriously have such a large lump in my throat right now, I can hardly breathe. And it stretches all the way to my heart!
ONLY GOD! He is SO in the MIRACLE MAKING BUSINESS!!!! And with a name like Jubilee Promise, she was sure to have hope for a future… even with infection only a grain of salt away from her brain. If we have faith of a mustard seed (that must be about a milometer, too, right!?!) NOTHING will be impossible for Him! PTL! He is FAITHFUL!!! <><
…and since He is so about blessing your family with miracles, and Jubilee PROMISE has SO much hope for her future… I'm gonna throw out another mustard seed or two of faith and believe for hearing in BOTH ears! He CLEARLY is SO able!! <><
Love you and SO happy to read this amazing God-breathed report! What a MIGHTY God we serve! 🙂
Blessings and Hugs to all of you!
~ Tanya
WOW! Praise His Holy Name! I know that it took longer than it seems like it should have in order to get her into surgery. Have you considered that God was using this miracle to work a miracle into the life of this doctor?! I'm so happy for yall!
Thank YOU Jesus!
God's healing….
He is able!
Sorry I haven't been on for a few days… REJOICING WITH YOU! Praise God! I am always glad the tissue box is nearby when I read your blogs. 🙂
Continuing to pray…
What a miraculous God we serve. Praising Him on behalf of the way he watched over your sweet Jubilee in every detail.
My husband Matt was one of Autumns leaders at YWAM LA… I've been following your blog since Karl's accident! I'm blessed to follow your story… we're becoming licensed with our county (in N. CA) to become foster/adoptive parents. I just want to say THANK YOU for being an example of people who are TRULY LIVING… You're engulfed in the messy & therefore get to experience the TRULY BEAUTIFUL that only comes from HIM!!!!!! Praise God for that millimeter… Praise him for NO TUMOR. What you wrote about what her life could have been if you wouldn't have adopted her- it's sobering!
Thanks again. I'll keep following!
Aly
AMAZING!! Praise OUR LORD!!! Jubilee is such a precious girl. We are so thankful that the Father set her in your family.
So Close and YET, SO FAR!!!!
WOW! I cannot imagine the feelings you are all having right now!
AMAZING…I will be thinking about this during worship time today!
Love,
C~
Amazing! Praying for a quick and total healing! 😀
Thank you so much for sharing this, I found your blog a few days ago because of searching for adoption. You have been so uplifting to me. I pray a speedy and complete recovery for Jubilee.
Your post has renewed my hope, this Friday my nephew will be having a biopsy done, he was diagnosed with cancer 2/18/2010 and his last CT showed that he had stopped responding to treatment, they are going to be checking to see if there is still can cancer or if is scar tissue. I am praying for scar tissue, but there is so much risk involved, his lungs are so weak, there is fear that they may not heal properly.
But, Linny, a grain of a salt away from Jubilee's brain! That is truly amazing, a grain of salt is the size of these possible tumors, or scars.
Praise God for your daughter, and may God bless you for your encouraging blog, sharing your story with the world is truly a gift. Thank you.