What the Doctor Said…..

First let me say, I am feeling very vulnerable. Many of you may find it hard to imagine, but I really am a very private person. No doubt, those closest to me would vouch for it. So to be living our lives and sharing my heart so publicly is a sure sign that God’s grace is upon this Place Called Simplicity. Trust me, never in my wildest dreams would I have guessed that I would be living my life so openly and sharing my heart so freely. I am forever grateful that the Lord has taken my love of writing and allowed that same love to be turned into a ministry to so many of you. I am truly humbled and actually pretty dumbfounded.

When Dw was in Africa and the doctor’s office called to say that there was a problem and could I come in and talk about it, I panicked. Never before, in my 51 years had I had that happen to me or even someone close to me. I mentioned it in a post, because I really wanted prayer. You guys have been my largest prayer force– far bigger than I could have ever dreamed.

But after mentioning it, I panicked again. I realized that I couldn’t just “never mention the doctors diagnosis, etc. again”. It would be like trying to hide an elephant in a room. I have reminded myself many times in the past while writing blog posts, that Christ will be honored and people will be drawn to Him IF they see real people, with real lives {including real pain, struggles, afflictions} living life to please Him, even in the midst of trials, sickness, and struggles.

I have mentioned before that my favorite person from the Bible is Joseph – he lived his life in victory, continually honoring God, finding favor with man, forgiving those who had caused him incredible heartache and pain {and their painful choices changed his life direction forever}; yet even in the midst of great affliction and trial he never wavered. He is my hero. He didn’t shrink back in spite of circumstances. He pressed on, courageously; understanding that God still had his back – even in the midst of his darkest days!

I want my life to honor God like Joseph’s did. I want others to see in my life that even in times of affliction, trials and struggles, God is faithful. He has always been faithful. In fact in my blogger profile I wrote this: There has never been a moment in history that He has removed His faithfulness from my life. {And yes, sweet bloggy friends, at times like this we must remember the tangible items in our Memorial Box – representing all the ways God has shown His faithfulness.}

Thus, here I am, sharing my newest journey/struggle/trial, very publicly. It is my prayer that throughout the days ahead my Master, Savior, and Best Friend, Jesus Christ be honored. This is my story:

So while Dw was in Africa I hurriedly went to see the doctor after her phone call that she needed me to come in. I will not bore you with all the details. But one of the numbers “normal range” was supposed to be anywhere between 0 and 34. My number was 437. She sent me for a sonogram. I had the sonogram and waited. Dw and my two treasures Emma and Graham were in Africa and that really was not my idea of a good time while going thru this. Many, many, many weird and yukky things have happened while Dw has been away on missions trips….I will someday have to write about why I think that is. I am now convinced that I might have figured it out.

Anyway, after the next set of tests the results went “MIA” and so her office called to come in the day Dw was returning from Africa. I was grateful. I wanted him to hear whatever the next results were with me. The results were convincing…I needed to see a specialist. It’s a little tricky living so far away from large medical facilities. But God was gracious and allowed me to get in quickly with a specialist.

Friday as we waited for my late afternoon appointment we went to Cracker Barrel for lunch. I had been praying for a verse that the Lord would give me. An extra special verse just for me and just for this trial. As we waited for our food I walked around the gift shop at Cracker Barrel {one of my favorite places}. They had a section of Bible Verses on pictures. I was drawn to this one. I realized immediately this was my verse from the Lord. See, as a very little girl I had discovered this verse. I had underlined. I took comfort in it. And although only a little girl, a few months later, I found a red feather with a little bling diamond on it, on the ground. I knew, as a little girl, that God had sent that little red feather as a love gift from Him. I put that little red feather in my Bible at the page where Psalm 91 was. When days were difficult {and there were many} I would open my Bible to Psalm 91:4 and read it over and over and stare at that little red feather. I pictured myself under God’s mighty wings, completely protected from wind, rain, storm and trial.
So when I saw the above picture at Cracker Barrel, hours before my doctor’s appointment, I knew it was Him. Reminding me that He had been faithful for the last 51 years, He was not about to leave me high and dry. I could take refuge under His wings.

Dw bought me the picture from Cracker Barrel and gave it to me after my doctor’s appointment. It now rests in my kitchen, reminding me:

“He will cover you with His feathers and under His wings you will find refuge.” Psalm 91:4

At 3:30 we met with the doctor. He is such a kind-hearted man. {He is also an adoptive father – from China! How cool is that?} He took his time. He drew pictures for Dw and I. He explained everything thoroughly. He spent probably about an hour with us, at least. We are so grateful for the Lord leading us to him.

So here is what he found: He took one look at the lab results I had brought with me and said, “You have Hashimoto’s Disease.” Hashimoto’s Disease is a disease where my own immune system is aggressively attacking my thyroid and destroying it. He then went on to say, “You must start taking meds. If you do not take medicine, you will die a slow death.”

After much more talking, explaining, questions, and more questions, he examined me. He thinks that I also have another not-so-fun disease as well. I am going to be tested for that this week.

Hashimoto’s is yet another auto-immune disorder. It is my fourth. To say I am weary would be an understatement. *tears* I will start the meds in the next few days. {Have I ever mentioned that I loathe meds? That I basically never take anything. Ever. Loathe is probably a mild word for how I really feel.}

He also discussed my sonogram results. There are a bunch of nodules on my right side of my thyroid. There is a very large nodule on my left side. He said that thyroid cancer is not very common, unless someone had x-rays as a young person. I said, “I had dozens of x-rays as a little girl.” His eyes got really big. Really big. {Don’t doctors know they are not supposed to get big eyes when a patient is telling them something??} He said, “Really? What were they x-raying you for?” I told him. He said, “Then we must biopsy this large one.”
The biopsy is set for July 7th. He said that the pathologist will be in the room, the sono tech will be there to point out the lump and he himself will be there guiding the 5 needles. He said, “I’m not gonna’ kid you, it stings a lot.” Thanks, I can hardly wait.

So there you have it. My private life going pretty public. Your prayers are needed, not just for me, but our family as well. The biopsy is a concern, given the circumstances, my x-ray history and the size of the nodule. Meds will be started in the next few days…ugh.
And so how am I really doing? I am weepy and weary, grieving and processing. I desperately want to bring more kids home. Desperately. My arms ache to hold more. Yet, I am reminded as I think of all the struggles in my life, that God has always been completely faithful, even with many very unexpected bumps and turns in life. That our little family knows Him as our Miracle-working, Mountain-moving, Awe-inspiring, Gasp-giving God. This circumstance does not change Him, but hopefully it will change me and make me more like Him. I remembered this verse on Sunday: “In everything give thanks, for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus concerning you.” I Thes. 5:18As I remembered those words I told the Lord, “Okay Lord, if you can use me more with Hashimoto’s Disease then you could without, then so be it. My life is yours. Use me.”

162 thoughts on “What the Doctor Said…..

  1. I have tears in my eyes and I am praying. I don't just say that…you are in my heart. May God's peace that passes understanding camp in your heart. May His healing Hand rest on your sholder. Hugs and many prayers and much love my bloggy friend….

  2. Hi Linny
    God led me to that same verse earlier this week and then spent the rest of the day loving on me thorugh friends, family and patients in my office. He truly is amazing. The other verse that keeps repeating itself in my heart is ps 94:19–When anxiety was great within me, your consolation brough joy to my soul.
    Praying for you in this latest round. prayers for consolation and joy as you rest in HIM.

  3. I have been praying for you!!! I didn't know what the doctor's visits would bring, but you have been heavy on my heart! I come out of the "lurking" mode to let you know that you are loved very much and you have prayer warriors storming the Lord with your name!
    Much love and never-ending prayer!

  4. Linny, I'm praying! For God to be SOOO ever-present during this time, and for you to be filled with an amazing peace that passes all understanding…and I think you'll recognize it..it seems you've experienced it before:)!

  5. Oh, Linny I am so sorry you have to go through this…I am so thankful you have a loving husband and the prayers and support of so many. We are lifting you up in prayer for the tests, and the results to be cancer free..
    I, too, have Hashimoto's Thyroid Disease and have for many years. Taking meds for it has gone well, even though I also do not like to take meds.
    May Jesus wrap you in His loving arms and keep you safe and secure…bring healing once again to your body..
    God bless….

  6. As hard as it is, thank you for allowing us the privilege of walking with you and your family through this. I will continue to pray for you and your sweet family. So glad that God continues to remind you that He's got your back. 🙂

  7. Linny,
    I have never posted here before, but have been reading your blog for almost a year…and praying for you all the while! I feel as though I am receiving this news from a "real life" friend, but then what is more real those with whom we share a Heavenly Father! This has not caught our Lord by surprise–He knows and He will be glorified by this. Praying for you and your sweet family–He is not finished with you!

  8. Oh love. I know how much it took for you to write and publish these words. I am really very proud of you for opening yourself up like that. I am crying with you. I know you cannot see the road, but God has prepared you to walk it. And we will walk with you. Love you, amazing lady!

  9. Honey – getting news like that sucks. I would know. My husband and I are in our early 20s and he was healthier than an ox before last June when he was diagnosed with an auto-immune disease. The man didn't even know HOW to take pills, as he'd never had to learn sicne he'd never in his life been sick. Now he has an auto-immune disease that will be with him the rest of his life.

    Everything changes in an instant. I love him dearly, and probably even more now, but we would never lie and say it's easy or anything but unsettling. Any day can be a bad day. And any day can bring more pain… but we're thankful as each day ends that it was a good one and we're grateful each morning that we're both awake to push through another one.

    I'm praying for you and I can't imagine your pain – physically AND emotionally. BUT I know you'll perservere and make it through and because of your obedience in publicly struggling, your very real life and very VERY real situation will bring many so much closer to God, and some even for the first time.

    You'll never know all the flowers that grow from a single seed you may plant. That's something I heard growing up, but it's so true.

    You're very inspiring and even though I hardly ever have the chance to comment, I read your blog ALL the time. Thank you for your honesty and being so genuine. May God bless you for it immensely!

  10. How precious that God would give you that verse right before getting the diagnosis…even though we know that He will care for us in every extreme circumstance, it is so good to get these reminders! Your openness on your blog is a precious gift to all who read your words. I am also very private and when I started my blog, I decided to become more transparent; so far it's only been a half-hearted effort!!! But you are an inspiration. I will be diligently praying for you. There is a possibility that we will be in Durango this weekend, if so – we will visit your church – I would love to say hello in person.

  11. Linny, you without a doubt have to be one of the most strongest and faithful women i know. i am so sorry to hear this, but like you said, "As I remembered those words I told the Lord, 'Okay Lord, if you can use me more with Hashimoto’s Disease then you could without, then so be it. My life is yours. Use me.'
    I am lifting you and your whole family up in prayer.

    I was searching for a scripture for you, and what do you know this one popped out at me. Sweet friend, this is so for you.

    "4 Even in darkness light dawns for the upright, for the gracious and compassionate and righteous man. [c]

    5 Good will come to him who is generous and lends freely, who conducts his affairs with justice.

    6 Surely he will never be shaken;
    a righteous man will be remembered forever.

    7 He will have no fear of bad news; his heart is steadfast, trusting in the LORD.

    8 His heart is secure, he will have no fear; in the end he will look in triumph on his foes.

    9 He has scattered abroad his gifts to the poor, his righteousness endures forever;
    his horn [d] will be lifted high in honor."

    Psalm 112: 4-9

  12. Sweet Linny,
    Oh how the Father LOVES you!! I am praying for you right now in all of this. It is amazing to me that even through all of this your faith never waivers. God has used you SO many times I am SURE He is not done with you yet! If your heart desires for more children that is because He has put it there. Just follow Him like you always do!

    You are loved by SO many and will be lifted before our Wonderful Healing Father to comfort you during all of your trials. What an inspiration you are!! Thank you for sharing your heart so openly! I know God will show up HUGE in this just like He has before for you so I cannot wait to SEE how He uses you. Praying its not painful but praying You will SEE as well all the people you are touching with this. Thank you again Sweet Linny!!

    Love you and praying for you!

  13. Hi Linny,
    Just wanted to de-lurk 🙂 to tell you thank you for your openness and honesty. I am praying for you, Dw and the rest of the family. My mom has several auto-immune diseases and I find that through reading your words and struggles, I have more sympathy and understanding about the ways she struggles. She is not really open about it and I tend to get frustrated with her easily. You help me understand, so I thank you for that.
    My family was near you last week for our church's family camp in Estes Park. I honestly can say I thought of you and prayed for you all week. It is so beautiful there – I know why you love it so!

  14. We will add this newest situation to our list of prayers for you Linny and I know God has a Plan on how he is going to use this with you. You are an aweseome person, I look to you daily for wisdom, renewed faith, and peace. Please know you are in my heart and in my prayers always. You and your entire boatload of a family! May God Bless you through this and may you find peace in all of your struggles.

    Love to you


  15. Oh Linny, thank you for sharing. I know that is a very vulnerable place to be but your story has encouraged and blessed so many, many people deeply!
    Your spirit always uplifts me…even in the darkest times you have your eyes focused on Him and you emit his unmistakable JOY!
    We are praying for you, for your family, for healing, wisdom for the doctors, and God's perfect leading.
    Much love and big hugs!

  16. Praying for you and your family here in Texas. I too struggle with thyroid disorder. I also am very resistent to meds. and refuse to take them unless "death" is mentioned. My goal is always to get off of them. Currently I am not taking thyroid meds. but just got my test results back from my last visit and mine are also out of whack. The good news is that God can heal thyroid problems too.

  17. Oh, Linny. I have Hashimoto's and I hate taking meds, too. But my thyroid medicine is the least bothersome, a tiny pill with kind of a sweet taste. It's the only pill I've ever been able to take without even drinking anything. Praying for you and all your conditions – you are of course under His wing!!

  18. Sweet Linny. I love you so much. I too have felt vulnerable. I too have auto immune "stuff." And I too want more kids. It all stinks. Just like when we lost our baby– there are just no words to make that pain go away. Even knowing God is hiding you still, doesnt make it seem to stop. I hope though that you know there are hundreds praying for you and your family. I hope you know that you and your family and your life are SUCH a light and hope to me personally and I know so many others. I wish I could bring you a hot cup of starbucks and a cozy set of jammies and just pamper you.(((hugs)))

  19. Thank you for your courage in sharing for all to see. It is very difficult to share ones' trials. We all tend to keep these things to ourselves. I think the Lord would have us share so that we might lend strength to one another and bear each others' burdens, even if it is only through a "cyber" friendship through blogs. My thoughts and prayers are with you. I have a scripture sticky taped to my computer that strengthens me: Joshua 1:9 Have not I commanded thee? Be strong and of a good courage; be not afraid, neither be thou dismayed: for the Lord thy God is with thee whithersoever thou goest.

    He will be with you.

  20. Oh Linny…more on your plate. But I know a few people with Hishomoto disease and they are doing great. The synthetic thyroid is indeed a life saver. The one women I know was in her 50s when I met her. Her hair was very thin, she spoke very slowly, she looked old beyond her years.Her organs(kidney etc) were not woriking as they should. She was indeed slowly dying. But after her diagnosis and treatment, the turn around was astounding. Her hair came back, she had tons of energy, and her she chatted non stop. I have never again seen such a dramatic change in a person's condition. She is now in her 80s!!! The hard part is to remember to take it every day. One of my best friends, who has it, was so afraid that she would forget each day tht her husband lays it out with her coffee every morning. Dw would do that!!!
    My prayers are eith you as you slowly digest this!!

  21. Linny,

    I am praying for you! I too have the same thyroid disorder and have had it for more than 20 years! I too have nodules and have had them poked and prodded, biopsied and scanned. I take a daily dose of Levoxyl and feel great!

    The Lord has not left my side, and He will not leave yours! Remember: Trust Him.

  22. Oh sweet Linny
    My tears are flowing with you. How I desperatly want to crawl thru the computer and hug you and weep with you. I will be praying consistently for you throughout my days. Praying for comfort, encouragement, that you would feel God with skin on and that the Lord would give you a see-able purpose for what is happening to you now. He definatly has a plan. I pray that you will be able to joyfully live in the present thanking God for the meds and hoping for His future.

    Loads of Love to you,

  23. hi linny,
    i am a follower of you… and of our LORD! 🙂

    i just wanted to share that i too have thyroid issues and taked medicine daily and will take it forever. it is the most benign medicine (lev*thyroxine – sp?). no side effects at all. in fact taking it makes me feel so much better! if this is the medicine you are taking, don't worry about it too much. it was thought for a bit that i too had hashimoto's. i think it is much more common than you might realise and totally manageable. i hope the practicality of this comforts you some.

    i will be praying about the lump on your thyroid – praying for a GOOD report!! don't fret. you don't need to fret. God has already written your story out in full and whatever it takes to bring that story to fruition, He will provide! you will do ALL that he has for you to do!!! 🙂

  24. Linny,
    Thank you so much for sharing all of that… I know it isn't easy… But now we all know how to pray more specifically for the Lord's healing and for strength for specific things and times.

    I will be praying for the Lord to strengthen you for the days ahead… I love that verse… He will cover you through this all:)

  25. oh gosh..tears in my eyes as I read this! I too a VERY SMALL degree understand your frustration with auto immune issues/disorders. I have an auto immune disorder that made me attack and my body kill all four babies we conceived and they also tested me for lupus because i had many of the signs but it came back negative, thankfully! Anyways, I cannot imagine what your going through but WOW the testimony and work God is doing through you and your story is amazing! I love how you wrote "This circumstance does not change Him, but hopefully it will change me and make me more like Him." amen sister! I will be praying for you! Thanks for sharing your heart!

  26. WOW. This is really strange. One day, while reading one of your recent posts about your upcoming tests, etc, I was all a-panic about what you might 'have'.

    I "heard" this: she has what you have Gail.

    I thought that just too strange, so I dismissed it. My bad.

    But yeah. Sure 'nuff. I have this too. And surprizingly, my numbers also were in the mid 400's. My doctor's office called me with my test results and asked me to RUSH in to see them and they told me NOT to drive myself. They had never seen numbers this high on someone still alive. I was so il that I wasn't gonna drive myself anyway.

    I tell you all this to let you know that you have someone who understands what you are going through (just a bit, everyone is different I know)and what you WILL go through.

    You are in GOOD HANDS with your Heavenly Father. be blessed!

  27. Dear Linny –
    I can only imagine how difficult it has been for you to share your health concerns. I have been reading your blog for many months but have never commented. You have been/continue to be a HUGE blessing to me and countless others. God is at work in your life and watching HIM at work in you has been such an encouragement!! My husband and I have three children and are in the process of adopting a special needs child from China. When God first began leading us to adopt, your blog brought conviction to my heart – convicted to do more than admire others who have adopted!
    Since we started the adoption process, I have struggled with some physical problems that I never had before and feel certain that the enemy would love for us to throw up our hands and say "I can't" – but I'm with you, if God is asking us to do this HE will give us the grace and physical strength that we need!!
    I am praying for you!

  28. Oh Linn my heart is breaking for you.

    I rarely comment (I am just too lazy to click out of Google Reader, quite shameful) but I always read and my heart has been heavy for you since you first mentioned worrying test results.

    This is scary, scary news but as we all know He never hands us something we cannot deal with.

    Praying for you and your precious family.

  29. Dearest Linny, I'm so shocked to hear this news(somehow I missed your request for prayer)but please know that in the coming hours, days and weeks I will be lifting you and yours up before the throne.
    Big giant hugs to you dear friend.

  30. Oh my……PRAYING right now! Thank you for being sooo open for letting us know. I will be praying specifically….daily! I know God is with us at all times and through all circumstances- LOVE YOUR VERSE!!! What a great reminder.

  31. Thanks for being transparent. Thanks for being real. . it is attractive and gives Jesus room to shine. I do not have the words to write. I am sad with you. But at the same time know that our God can heal and it is not hopeless. I will pray for a miracle. . .I will pray for complete healing. . I have July 7 marked on my calendar and will pray that day. . I will pray for your hubby and your kiddos too. May God be glorified.

    I appreciate who you are-
    Su Soutter
    Raleigh, NC

  32. Oh Linny, I am so relieved. I am just glad that it is something medication can take care of. I had a thyroidectomy 7 years ago, and I had a needle biopsy before that. It is uncomfortable, but not so bad. I hate medicines also, but I am glad we live in an age that we have the right medicines to take.
    I have a friend that had thyroid cancer 20 something years ago. It is a very slow growing cancer. She has never had any more problems after having her thyroid removed.
    I will keep praying for you, but I am so relieved.

  33. *Tears*
    Oh, Linny, thank you for sharing this with us. I cannot imagine how difficult it must be. I will definitely be praying for you. Psalm 91 is a verse that the Lord gave to me, too, many years ago, when I had some health issues as well. What peace there is to know that the Lord covers us – come what may, and that you are always in Good Hands.

  34. Linny, thank you for sharing your joys and struggles with us. It is such a testament to God's never-ending faithfulness. I will continue to pray that God's hand will be on you and your family. That He will move the mountains before you in this journey. That He will go ahead of you and put in place amazing miracles that will be mind-boggling. But most of all I will pray for an amazing peace to flood your spirit and your home through all of this!! God Bless You!

  35. Precious Linny, thank you for living your life openly before us, because now we can know how to pray for you! And pray we definitely shall. You have not tasted the healing and victory of Jesus only to become undone in this trial. We are holding your arms up on the days you are weary … prayerfully lifting you up to the Father for complete healing. You are such a precious daughter of the King. Sending you all my love today. Janine

  36. Oh Linny, I don't even know what to say to you. But I am so thankful that went public. I would if I had that going on. All the more prayers! And I AM praying for you. I just wrote your name on a post it note and stuck it on my computer. I think I will draw some wings on it too.


  37. Oh Linny, thank you for sharing you private world and allowing us to be here for you. I have Hashimoto's and my four year old daughter (adopted from China NSN) also has it, what's the chance of that happening. I was diagnosed at 24 and told I had probable had it all my life. I will be praying for you. I am so glad that they got you in right away. Your meds will help you in so many ways. TAKE THEM EVERY DAY!!!!!

    Love you and your ministry!

  38. I wish I had some super awesome words… but I dont. So, I will say that I am praying for you!! Truly, I am. Keep your head up… God's got this!!

  39. Oh linny *hugs*
    I love that verse too. His arms are around us all. We reside in His fortress. If it helps at all, you're an amazing testament of faith to me. more *hugs* as you go through this journey.

  40. Well now I know how to specifically pray for you. I love those verses and that put tears in my eyes that God sent you that feather and you still hold it close to your heart all these years later. He is so wonderful!:)

    My husband suffers from a couple of different autoimmune disorders and we've been praying for wisdom and healing because the options and medications out there leave us feeling quite discouraged. I know that's not how the Lord wants us to feel about life and we've been trying different things with our diet and trying to take supplements and getting our fill of vit. D. I don't know if it's helping, but I have been led to exactly the right treatments before in miraculous ways (God led me to be healed from post-partem depression) and I trust Him in this.

    I think I would like to focus on praying that the biopsy would be a pain free experience for you:) In the name of Jesus Christ our Lord, be with Linny, for you are the true comforter and your peace surpasses our understanding and you do work ALL things together for the good for those who are called according to your purposes. Amen.

  41. Once again, I am astounded at the boatload of trials you and you family are enduring and have endured as you also share your boatload of dreams. I am amazed and encouraged by your faith. I am amazed at your humble spirit that so freely shares difficult things. I am so thankful that we share an incredible God and Father that is keeping you under His wings. I will pray that you continue to find strength in The Refuge.
    Love and Prayers,

  42. Hi Linny,
    Thank you for sharing what is going on with you. I have been so worried since you first mentioned that something was wrong. You offer so much support and love through your blog, let us give you some back now. I know you don't like to take meds, but I'm glad it something that can be treated with medication. Sending you lots of love and prayers.

  43. Linny, I am so sorry to hear this news. We will be praying for you, your family and your doctor! God is the great physician! Thankfully!

  44. Linny:
    There's much I could say, but only this for now- I also have Hashimoto's and God has used it for His glory. When I learned of it and all the other problems it causes, I was overwhelmed. When I tried to read and educate myself it became even more so. If you need a voice instead of trying to wade through it on your own, I would be glad to speak with you. With Jesus it is moment by moment anyway. Hang in there Linny, He's right there.

  45. OH Linny the prayers are going out full force. I've been reading all your posts and have been worried. Our Pastor just had the very same biopsy done last month. The doctor told him his nodules looked suspicious. Everything turned out fine. And he has already had cancer in his liver so it was a high alert.We always have you and your family on our special intentions list at church.

    All our love and support to you now!!!

  46. Linny thank you for sharing your heart and your soul with us. I am praying for you! Hang in there, He is indeed holding you and covering you with His wings.
    I pray for peace and grace over you. I pray for your aching arms to find solace in the children near you now. God knows your heart and aches with you.
    Blessings to you my friend.

  47. I have a 10 yr old daughter with auto-immune kidney disease along with a host of other health issues. She is constantly facing doctors and tests (xrays, mri, biopsy, you name it)as they are always seeming to add another diagnosis.

    Your story, while not pleasant, gives me hope for my daughter's future. I would be so blessed if she were to grow up and serve God the way you do!

  48. Linny,
    I will be praying for you. I live with an auto-immune disease as well and it is hard. God has put it in remission for 7 years! I need to take medicine three times a day and well, it stinks, but it keeps me well. I never took it as a death sentence, but knew God allowed it to happen and He was going to use it for His glory. Keep your eyes on Jesus! Praying for strength for you and your family.

  49. Oh, Linny! You are so brave! Thank you for 'going public' with the deepest parts of your life. He IS faithful, and He continues to use you as His faithful servant. Sweet friend, you know He's still the awe-inspiring, miracle-working God…and I'm praying He leaves you in AWE as He performs His MIRACLES upon your body! Please know that we are praying for you!
    Love you!

  50. yes… Linny… you are describing my 2006.
    Can i encourage you??? Not only is that my favorite verse in the whole Bible,
    i sat in that little waiting room while the MD/radiologist told my (physician) husband that i had thyroid cancer…..
    Biopsy THAT DAY, (while i had been uncontrollably sobbing– i have 5 kids!) Then the waiting.
    I was called at home. Biopsy (miraculously)= BENIGN
    but tumor has to come out because (and i quote) "15 % margin of error and thyroid looks "ugly" " ….
    Days later, i woke up to the words, "It's Benign." It's the first thing i remember coming out of anesthesia. The tumor was HUGE.
    Yes, doing the autoimmune thing is yucky. it has taken time to negotiate favorably, the whole hormone replacement thing– a battle in itself.

    Even with that being said, many many of the thyroid cancers are very easy to treat (in relation to how effective they are). One of my great friends had thyroid cancer at 20. She is now 40 and has had several kids. The "Cancer" word can be so very scary…. I will be praying for you. I, myself, cried buckets. It was agony. And in the end, so NOT worth it!

    God will sustain you, girl. I am hoping you can take some of my courage, having experienced the same, even if you don't have it right now.
    thanks for your honesty and transparency! we love you blog! My girls read it every day and usually give me "kid" updates. 🙂

    praying and thinking of you, dear one!

  51. I don't usually comment much, but want you to know I am committing to pray for you through this. May God gather you as a mother hen gathers her chicks and may you feel the peace and comfort of His presence as you go through this scary time. {hugs}

  52. God Truely has you in His Hands, In His arms, but more importantly, in HIS PLANS. He will use you and your family. He allows us to go through trials, but he never gives us something we can not handle. Our God will prove to be bigger than this disease or any other disease the Dr says you have. I believe God is going to bring you healing, but through this trial many will come to trust our Father in Heaven and see His healing powers.

  53. I have been following your blog for several months, but have never commented. You and your family has ministered to me a lot and I will pray for your health and that God will bless your family with more children. So thankful you are allowing God to use you and to be so open.

  54. Praying for you Linny. We serve a BIG God; He's got you completely covered in His hands. Thank you for being vulnerable and allowing us into your life. It is an honor and privilege to lift you up before our Father's Throne.

  55. All I can say is that you a wonderful loving woman that I admire and that we are loving and praying for you. I cannot wait to meet you some day! God will take care of you and hold onto you tightly and use you in ways you never dreamed of.

  56. My precious sister…oh, how His Hand is upon your life! Know that He truly does have you tucked under His wing. And Linny, try to remember that those very meds were discovered BECAUSE God placed the ability within men and women to DISCOVER them, for the good of His precious people. Yikes, it seems weird for ME to be telling you to be sure to THANK GOD every time you put a med in your mouth! But…practiced thankfulness really DOES become heartfelt and real! I know from experience. Thank you for sharing. Thank you for being YOU. I love you, Linny. I am praying, praying, praying….for strength, for joy, for thankfulness, for peace, for health and healing.

    Hugs, love, prayers and blessings..
    Nancy in CT

  57. I enjoy reading your blog, though I'm not sure if I've ever commented or not. I have Hashimoto's Disease. I was diagnosed my junior year of college. I am now 29. I remember crying and feeling really strange when I found out – though I was glad there was a reason for why I was feeling so awful and I was so thankful the "fix" was so simple. So, I've been on Synthroid ever since. My dose has had to be adjusted a few times, esp. after I have a baby, and if I go a week or more without my meds I feel awful! So, I take the little pill each morning, and though I hate medicine too, I'm so thankful I can have this pill to keep me well. I'll be praying for you as you adjust to the idea of having this new disease and taking a daily pill. God bless you Linny.

  58. Linny,

    I am praying for you and will continue to pray every single day. God loves you so very much.

    Your complete surrender to the Lord is an inspiration to me and many others, I'm sure.

    He is worthy of your trust. Keep seeking Him because He will NEVER let you down.

    Loving Him with all my heart,
    Nancy in SC

  59. Linny,

    I'm new to following your blog, thank you for being so transparent…I will be praying for you! Your life & your family are a big encouragement to many, including me. Please keep us posted……….I'll keep praying!


  60. Hi Linny,
    You don't know me but I've been following your blog as we are trusting the Lord to add to our family through adoption this year. I've found such encouragement through you and want to thank you for sharing the journey. I just wanted to let you know that today was extra special. I woke up struggling this morning (long story) and in my quite time I prayed specifically that the Lord would "reassure me that I am loved and snuggled under the safety of his wing." Then later in the day, can you believe it, I read your entry. How awesome is HE??? But I also love the way he works on many levels. I believe He answered my prayer through you, but in the same way, I am called to pray for you. You see, just 5 and a half years ago I found a lump on my thyroid and had to have a needle biopsy done. I was so scared just like you, and really didn't want to have the procedure done (I hate needles). My husband was able to be with me and I truly feel like the Lord lead the Dr.'s hands. The procedure was not nearly as bad as I had worked myself up for, and was over pretty quickly. The results were not cancerous, what a relief. The two nodules could be felt throught the skin. Friends and family layed hands on me and prayed for healing …and continued to pray over time. Long story short, the nodules have shrunk and no longer can be felt by touch. I know the Lord healed me. It was not instantly, but over a few years. I don't know exactly how He will move on your behalf, but I know it is no coincidence that I read your blog today. This week I have also been thinking about 1Thes5:8 and also Psalm 34:1-4 "I will thank the LORD at all times. My lips will always praise him. I will honor the Lord. Let those who are hurting hear and be joyful. Join me in giving glory to the Lord. Let us honor him together. I looked to the Lord, and he answered me. He saved me from everything I was afraid of."
    One final thought for you…
    "The LORD your God is with you, he is mighty to save. He will take great delight in you, he will quiet you with his love, he will rejoice over you with singing." Zephaniah 3:17
    Praying for you with love and blessing,

  61. Oh Linny, thanks for updating us and confiding in your bloggy friends. I know it must have taken such courage to sit down and type those words. Your prayer warriors are on the front lines praying for healing, peace, and strength.

    May you feel comfort and protection under His wing. May you see reminders of His faithfulness all along the way. (I'm thinking you're going to have to invest in a much bigger Memorial Box when this is over.) And may you know just how loved you are through this journey.

    God Bless,

  62. I have been following your blog for several months, I can hardly wait to check it when I get home from work! Thank you for your inspiration, and faith. I also have the same disease, which caused infertility and a miscarriage several years ago. Since I have been taking medication, I have felt WONDERFUL. No more constant fatigue, depression, feeling like I was gaining weight… all with no side effects. My numbers were not nearly as high, but I hope it's an encouragement to you just the same. My prayers are with you during this difficult time.

  63. Thank you for sharing!! I will be praying for you Linny!!!

    I ALSO HAVE HASHIMOTOS DISEASE and I was diagnosed when I was 30, 8 months after I had ovarian cancer which was removed when I was 25 weeks pregnant with my third daughter. I had had it for awhile because it had turned into Hypothyroidism also and they stared me on meds right away. That was almost 8 years ago. The amazing thing was, when I began to research, I discovered that thyroid issues can cause higher levels of estrogen in your body and that is what causes ovarian cancer. I often wonder if the two went hand in hand and that God not only wanted to heal me of the cancer but also wanted to show me what could have caused it.

    I also was diagnosed with a multinodular goiter with 30-40 nodules or so, hard to say for sure. Because I had just had cancer, they wanted to do a biopsy in 4 places. It was not painful but very unpleasant because all you want to do is swallow!! Plus they decided not to numb me first because that would mean 8 injections instead of 4. The Lord was with me the whole time and I had such peace and you will too!! It was benign!

    The other amazing thing was that at my very first appt with the endocrinologist, he asked me if my mother had rheumatoid arthritis and I gasped….. she had just been diagnosed two months earlier and he said that it was thought that there may be connection.

    At the time my husband and I were planting a Calvary Chapel just outside of DC and we were under a lot of stress. I felt so depressed with the cancer already and struggling to be a mother and Pastors wife and being away from home, (I am British). I felt like my life was over!!! And I was only 31 at the time. But praise be to God because the meds have truly worked and I feel so much better!!! The following year we moved back to England and began the process to adopt a little girl from China!! And then we planted a church in the UK and God gave me the strength to stand with my husband!! Now we have just moved back to the states and my husband is working for The Joshua Fund for a man named Joel Rosenberg and he is traveling to the middle east frequently!! Every other month or so!! God is giving me the grace, it is not easy and in the back of my mind I often wonder what other health issues I may have in the future and if I will be able to do all that I do…. but God often whispers and asks me to just take today and not worry about tomorrow!!! He has it all in His hands…. my tomorrow and your tomorrow.

    Wow I guess I wrote a lot!! I just wanted to encourage you as a sister in Christ!! And I do not mind if you post this on your blog!

    Nahum 1:7 The Lord is good, a stronghold in the day of trouble and He knows those who trust in Him!!

    Blessings to you!!! I will be praying,



  64. Dar Linny, Here I am the first to comment and I don't really know what to say. I am in tears along with you. Just want you to know that prayers will be going up to our great , wise and wonderful God from Australia for you.

    May you feel his peace and I pray that everytime you are prone to forget a med, He will give you a kick in the you know where. I can feel for you as I dislike having to take pills of any kind also.

    Love and prayers from West Asutralia

  65. Oh Linny – my heart goes out to you. While I do not have an auto immune dz, my family is riddled with them and my 2 year old daughter has juvenile rheumatoid arthritis and my 5 year old has lupus. But you are right – our God is so good, and His hands are the only ones to be in. We are praying for you, for healing as only He can, and for wisdom for the doctors. Lifting you up ….

  66. Linny, Thank you for your open, honest, and transparent life. Thank you for sharing how you really feel about what you've learned over the last few days. And thank you for giving so many the opportunity to pray for you. It is an honor, and not something we take lightly. God is faithful to keep you all close and under His wing!

  67. Linny,

    This is my first time to comment on your blog, after years of reading it, and what a privilege to be the first to comment on this post.

    I am praying for you, and my heart feels for you and your family. I can't wait to see how God is glorified through your situation, and how much more he can be glorified since you are vulnerable to share with all of us blog-readers! Please, please continue to keep us updated.

    Thanks for the suggestions by email on ways to teach kids how important it is to serve others. After months of praying, God answered my prayer this week by leading me to a Christian organization that ministers to the homeless moms and kids here in Houston. I can't wait to volunteer with them for the first time!

    Corrie Beard

  68. Linny,
    Thank you for sharing your life. I know that I have been blessed because of what you have shared here on your blog. I will be praying for you and your family! What a priviledge it would be for me to do so! God bless you as you walk this journey!

  69. Praying for you Linn. I had my thyroid removed 10 years ago and also had nodules. I had the biopsy done…it was not as bad as I expected. I was fine, my husband almost fainted….a total guy thing, right!?! Praying peace over you and for good results.

    Julie Hoagland

  70. Oh Linny,

    As we battle our sweet daughter, Sarah's cancer (adopted from China in October) I am struck by how we are comforted by the same passages/verses. Psalm 91 has been my very favorite psalm for years. I read it over and over. Joseph is my favorite character in the Bible, and in a recent "note" on fb where I am updating friends and family about our cancer journey, I recently wrote an entry based on 1 Thessalonians 5:18, detailing all the ways we are so extremely thankful. I also am praying through this that God will use it to change me and make me more like Him. And indeed He is already. He is so good. He never makes mistakes or is taken by surprise. He ALWAYS works all things together for good. He knows you are weary, and He will never leave you, nor give you more than you can bear. I am praying for you as you face another trial, and I am so glad you are sharing with all of us friends who love you over the internet, because we are a big bunch of prayer warriors!! Please pray for our Sarah as well. She is such a treasure. Love you, dear sister in Christ…

    Holly Gilliam

  71. Wow! So Sorry to hear that! I will definatly be praying for you and your family. You are such an insperation to me! I love reading your posts! Thanks so much!

  72. Will be praying for the Lord's healing, His will, His peace…… Not even the winds of Hell can tear you from His hands….. He has you… He has your beloved children…..
    Deuteronomy 31:6

    In Him,

  73. i'm so glad you don't have to travel this journey alone. you have the One who said he would never leave you or forsake you.
    you have your DW
    your children
    and us.
    know that we are "carrying your mat" just like the paralytic who was lowered down from the roof to see Jesus. when you're too weary to carry, we will carry it for you.
    you are truly blessed, even in your sufferings. how very much you are loved, friend.
    praying for you and for the forever children who are yet unnamed that will come to share life with you and your family.
    blessings to you, friend!

  74. Linny, I had a nodule on my thyroid when I was 17 it was the size of a lemon and I had a biopsy and later a surgery to remove it.The biopsy was not fun but didnt really hurt, I went shopping afterwards, and the surgery was not fun but I only took 4 out of the 50 pain pills I was given,,,,It will not be as bad as you think 🙂

  75. "He has delivered us from such a deadly peril, and he will deliver us. On him we have set our hope that he will continue to deliver us, as you help us by your prayers. Then many will give thanks on our behalf for the gracious favor granted us in answer to the prayers of many."
    2 Corinthians 1:10-1:11
    I am praying for you and your family.

  76. Sweet Linn – holding you close. I have had a thyroid biopsy – it is uncomfortable but you will feel better quickly. Mine turned out to be nothing and I hope that is your diagnosis as well – but in all things we look to Him who is able to do so much more than we can imagine. I love you and wish you God's incredible peace and comfort. I love Psalm 91 also. Rest in it.

  77. Linny,
    I've been reading back through your blog and enjoying getting to "know" you and your beautiful family. I'll be praying for you as you navigate these tests.

  78. O my, how trying life can be with medical issues. I love the scripture verse as well. I am continuing to pray for you and a good outcome to all this. May you rest in God's ever loving arms and remember that he is faithful to his children (as he has been down through the ages.) Hugs!!

  79. Dear Sweet Linny,
    Praying to the Father for your healing and for peace for your heart and mind. Thank you for sharing the struggle with us so that we can pray for you. It is a privilege for us to be able to do so. Sending you big hugs,
    P.S. Can they use a local anesthetic before your biopsy so that it won't hurt as much?

  80. We are praying for you and your family!! You are never alone, and I hope the power of everyone's prayer continues to uplift you and give you some comfort.

    All the best,
    Nicole A. in OH

  81. Thank you, thank you, thank you for sharing your life with all of us! You are correct, that it is through OUR lives that Christ is glorified and is seen by others who are watching.

    Huge hugs to you!!!

  82. Hi Linny, I've been praying for you. I posted on my memorial box monday post about having cancer. I didn't say what kind, well it was thyroid cancer spread to my lymph nodes. I also have Hashimotos.

    FYI-I am mom2six, 4 at home, 1 in heaven and 1 waiting in china. All but one of those came after my cancer diagnosis.

    I would be more than happy to discuss thyroid issues ect with you. Let me know.

    Hugs and Prayers,

  83. Love and prayers from NE. Keep on keeping on. Do not fret. Delight yourself in the Lord and he will give you the desires of your heart. This did not take him by surprise. We are holding you in our prayers as you light the way for so many of us that are young moms just starting our parenting journeys. Thank you for letting us know how to pray specifically for you during this very hard time.

  84. Hugs to you! I don't know you but I've commented a few times earlier…and just wanted to mention spiritual roots of diseases again. I don't know if you put much stock in how our spiritual being relates to our physical being, this is from a book called A more excellent way. "but many people have been healed through Be In Health, of anxiety disorders that included Hashimoto's disease as part of the profile. Today, the majority of these people who have been healed of fear, anxiety and stress no longer have hashimoto's disease. This disease is considered incurable in the medical community, but I am here to tell you that's not so. Just as the thyroid malfunctioned because of fear, anxiety and stress, when fear, anxiety and stress are eliminated through ministry, the thyroid kicks back into balance and begins to secrete thyroxin correctly again. In hypothyroidism, which is the result of fear, anxiety and stress, there is an autoimmune component which kicks in involving white corpuscles which collect at the thyroid location and cause nonbacterial inflammation and swelling. This advanced stage is called Hashimoto's disease. In this case, self-hatred, self-rejection and guilt become the major root with fear, anxiety and stress becoming a rider component. In either case, many, many people are well today because of our ministry programs for them concerning it in both of these manifestations."pg 291
    I truly don't know your fears etc. But I know when I read your story about the fire, it brought to my memory the story of Job and how the thing that he feared most (his children perishing) happened to him. Anyhow, I only share this with you for extra info, not to tell you that this is why you have this autoimmune disease. I pray Holy Spirit gives you discernment whether to look in to this further or simply discard it.
    May Yahweh bless you and keep you and make His face to shine upon you!

  85. Oh Linny….
    I have been praying for you and will continue. The Lord actually woke me up at 2:30 am (west coast time) on Monday telling me to pray for you. Your life is radiant and such an encouragement to me over and over again. Thank you for being real in a world where so many try to act perfect. It is a gift beyond measure.
    We will pray you through this storm…you sit back and let the Lord carry you.


  86. Oh Linny, I just don't know what to say. I am so very sorry. Please know you are in my thoughts as is all your beautiful family as you deal with this new burden. My heart goes out to you as you deal with the physical as well as the emotional pain of the diagnosis and further tests.

  87. I am so sorry that you are going through all this. When things like this happens, thinking about Job helps to me to remember that YHWH is still in control… even Satan still has to ask Him for permission. There is a reason for it all happening, we just not know why… in Him will we put our trust.

    Praying for strength for you, and peace, for you and your family, that you may be able to embrace ~ today ~ and not worry about tomorrow.

  88. Linny,

    I am very sorry for what you are going through. I know God will shelter you under His wings and carry you through. We will be praying for you!

  89. Heavenly Father,
    You are the great healer – I bring Linny before you and ask for healing. Lord you understand her body in a way that no one else can so please guide the doctors as they treat her and restore her health. Be with her and her family as she goes through more testing and the biopsy – give them peace that only you can give. Give Linny strength during this trial – replenish her weary body and fill it with hope and joy! Lord protect this precious family and allow their doors to remain open to more little ones to come forever home to!
    In Your Holy and Precious Name AMEN

  90. Of course you will be in my prayers. As a nurse I see all the time how someone's attitude towards a disease truly affects their life and even the outcome. your positive attitude, and great faith will bring you through this. I know it.

  91. Linny,
    Several years ago, our youth pastor developed a huge lump in his neck. My husband, who was his physician, did all the preliminary testing and then went to his house to personally tell him the bad news. Cancer. The oncology visit was scheduled. Then, my husband prayed with this young man and his wife — asking specifically that God would take the cancer and heal him as only God can.

    He had his biopsy — those same needles you speak of. The oncologist explained his probable next steps.

    BUT GOD!

    The tissue they biopsied was dead! There may have been cancer cells, but they weren't in that biopsy.

    He went back for a follow-up test, a more invasive test that took a slice of tissue. They sent it to the Mayo clinic for a proper diagnosis. The Mayo Clinic gave the same results: Dead tissue, type uncertain.

    God healed our friend. I pray, dear lady, for God to touch you and heal you, too. May the doctors be as confused by your faith healing as they were for my friend.

    Yet, if he chooses a different path for you… I pray for peace, comfort, and super-natural strength. I pray right now for joy in every circumstance, "Count it all joy when you face trials of every kind."

    May God's presence be ever real.

  92. Wow. I don't usually leave comments on here. You have so many followers that I can't imagine you needing to read one more comment. But, this morning your post spoke volumes to me. Well….your posts always speak volumes. But, this morning it put things in perspective again. To be reminded to praise HIM in all things. Even in such trial. I am an adoptive Mama too. I am in the process of another adoption. There have been set backs and are still things holding us back that I am worried about. But, I will praise HIM just the same! Thanks for the reminder. Reading your posts really are like a little devotional every morning!

  93. I am usually a "Lurker" on your blog but ,today I felt that I needed to assure you that many, many people are praying for you and this will come to pass. As a mom of eighteen I can understand your hearts desire for more childern. Hang in there, it's going to be ok.

  94. Will continue to keep you in my prayers. You are such an inspiration to me.
    Whenever I am down (which has been a lot lately) I can come to your blog
    and find a verse or the inspiration that I need to help for that day. Keep your
    chip up and know that you mean so much to so many people (some you may
    never meet). You are an amazing Godly woman. Keep doing what you are
    doing. Will be praying for you and your family.
    Angie H.

  95. Oh Linny, I am speechless. I am so very sorry for this hard time you are facing. Even though I know God uses our struggles for His purposes and His glory, it doesn't make them any easier. I am so challenged by your heart and love for Jesus, and by your total surrender to Him. I know He loves you so very, very much, and has always been so very tender and gentle with you. I know He will continue to do so now. Thank you for being willing to allow the rest of us to learn from you as you are open and transparent. I will continue to cry out to Him on behalf of your sweet self and your sweet family. We love you!

  96. Linny,

    I too, was diagnosed with Hashimoto's Disease right after I saw you at the hospital. The biopsy wasn't too bad, I think it felt worse afterwards when the numbing meds wore off. The nodule (I have several)that was biopsied was 2.5 cm. They like to biopsy when the reach 1.5 cm. so my was large, too. I have been on thyroid hormones for ~ 8 years. I can't believe how much better I feel now. Before my skinned itched, my hair was really dry and falling out, and I was SO tired. Thyroid cancer is rare, but VERY treatable. I tell you all this so that you know that you are not alone!!!!! I pray for you everyday that you have peace and are not scared. Love to you!

  97. Wow. I was shocked when you said you had Hashimoto's Disease because my mother in law was diagnosed with it a year ago and she also was very worried. Since then, she has been on the medicine and had great results and has felt better than she has in years. It's not over, it's not cured, but she is doing very good and is more active than ever.

    We are also wondering if my husband has it. He will be getting tested sometime too.

    As for you biopsy, that made me so sad for you. That would make me very nervous too, but try me, it is SO apparent God is not done using you HERE. Your verse is exactly right.

  98. Thank you for your transparency and the witness that you are of God's transforming love and grace. This post made me cry from a huge jumble of emotions. I'll definitely be in prayer for you and your doctors and your amazing family.

  99. Linny-I've had the biopsy and they are right, it does sting. The funny (?!?!) part is they say 'now don't move' then jab your neck with a bunch of needles. Don't move?!?! yeah, right! It's not the worst pain I've ever felt though and its over pretty quickly. I had a partial thyroidectomy at the age of 28 and have been on meds since. You will get through this and be stronger for it. You are in our prayers. There are several of us here in Central KY that follow your blog and we often chat about your family at our adoption support groups. (Don't worry, its just a small group of friends who have been brought together through our adoption journies.)

  100. I don't post comments often (I'm the one who keeps your blog open at work in the background so I can listen to your playlist!) but please know I'm a faithful follower…of Jesus Christ and of your blog. You and your family will continue to be in my prayers.
    lauren (united methodist minister in NC)

  101. Dear Linny, thank you for being so brave and sharing with us. We 3 will be praying for you. I just want to encourage you that I had – an hour ago asked The Lord for 2 verses ( I put the ones He gives on the labels of the Bible Bags I make….. and the 2 verses here are the Ones- He really does sanctify and use every single thing we offer up to Him – in so many different ways. We love you lots.
    Can you give me a post address for you? I'd like to send you something that won't go flat enough for an email!. x AM

  102. Oh Linny, you're such an inspiration. Thank you for sharing this even though it must be really hard. I think about you and the family often and keep you in our prayers.

    Psalm 91 has been on my heart this week, so I smiled when I saw it here. God is good all of the time.

    You're great 🙂 Rach x

  103. Linny,
    Thank you for being vulnerable! I can only imagine how hard that was. We now know who to specifically pray for you. Please know that I will be lifting you up to the Lord as the days go by. The biopsy will be here and done with before you know it. Again, thank you for always being real. Your ministry is so important and God is using you in a might way. May our Miracle-working, Mountain-moving, Awe-inspiring, Gasp-giving God HEAL YOU!!!! Love,
    Tricia Thompson

  104. Oh Linny, I am praying for you! Thanks for letting us walk this journey with you and lift you up in prayer as you so often have lifted us with your encouraging words.

  105. (you don't have to publish this but I hope you are encouraged by it)
    Linny, I am thankful that you are being so open with us so we can pray specifically, and so Christ can be glorified when He answers all of our prayers for COMPLETE healing and peace in the meantime.

    I was diagnosed with thyroid cancer 18 years ago and have had several bouts with it. I was young during the initial treatments so it was easier to bounce back from surgery and radiation than it would be now, but it is definitely NOT the worst thing that has happened to me, and it is definitely not a life sentence. The pill I take daily to keep me from dying a slow death is small and easy– and I guarantee I hate pills at least as much as you 🙂 (I suffer through a headache rather than take tylenol- it's really quite foolish!).

    All this to say– yes, it stinks to have something else heaped upon you. Yes, hassle. Yes, the needle biopsy hurts like the dickens. But yes, you will also get to see God's faithfulness in a whole new way. It may not feel worth it now, but I pray you will be able to look back and see how worth it it all was.

    It took me 18 years to see how God would use my cancer: this past year one of my friends was diagnosed with breast cancer. Loving and supporting her through that from my unique perspective as a cancer survivor allowed me to understand God's love like I never have before (which I had been praying for, but I was blown away that He would use my friend's cancer to teach me about His love). If that was the sole reason I got cancer at 16, it is good enough. I would do it again to get here again, just like I'd choose infertility just to get the chance to be a mother to my adopted daughter.

    I'll be praying for you and looking forward to updates.


  106. Hi Linny,
    I'm so sorry for your diagnosis, but I really admire your courage, strength and the fact that you always give glory to God. I will pray for you.

  107. Linny,
    You are precious. You inspire faith in me. My mom has raised me on Psalm 91. She said it morning and night EVERY single day of my life. It is near and dear to my heart. I pray it for you now.
    Your friend,

  108. I know this diagnosis sounds scary. I got the same one about 4 years ago. I just want to encourage you and let you know that this disease is very manageable. Taking pills is never fun but I am grateful for a simple way to control this. I too had an ultrasound (after 3 other Dr's telling me there was nothing wrong) and was told I had a huge mass in my thyroid. I didn't have a biopsy because it was so big it had to come out anyway. I had surgery and was back at work just a few days later and only have a small scar to show for it. God knows your body better than anyone and I pray that he will give you comfort and encouragement during this time. Thank you for sharing.


  109. Just one more way to make us VT's we are now both on thyroid meds at almost the same timing!! Trust me you are going to appreciate how yucky you have been feeling until they start working and then it is like, "Oh yeah this is what life feels like again!"

    Loving you!

  110. Hi Linny
    I know this is late to comment, but just wanted to let you know that I will pray for you as you go through this trial. May God be very close to you.
    God bless

  111. Linny,
    I read your blog ALL the time and only remember commenting maybe once or twice. I just had to reach out to you during this time. I also have a couple of autoimmune diseases including lupus and hashimotos. I just wanted to encourage while hoping not to belittle your fears and concerns. Taking the meds are not bad at all & you will probably be surprised that you will feel better! Many autoimmune diseases occur together and I am surprised this was not discovered before. I was diagnosed with lupus when my husband had just started seminary. I really struggled with why the Lord would call us to ministry only to "limit" me in this way. Doctors are constantly amazed that I am not "sicker" according to my labs, He has done such a good work & healed me in so many ways although I still have these autoimmune diseases. The Lord is not one bit surprised by this news nor that fact that you still have SO much to do (bring home other babies & hold down the big fort you already have among other things:) You have shared so much that He has done & ways He has healed you & He will continue to carry you! Rest in HIM & thank you so much for sharing your journey. -By the way, when I was diagnosed they were skeptical that I would be able to get pregnant I am momma to 2 bio boys & we were about to start our international adoption when our 3rd bio surprised us & all of the docs:) Praying for you sweet sister!
    Feel free to email me if you have specific questions: a7ellis at hotmail dot com

  112. I'm a bit behind on checking your blog but I will be praying. I have an 11 year old cousin who has Hashimoto's disease, plus Celiac disease, plus Type 1 diabetes since she was age 1. She and her family are believers. Often we have asked like you, why so many crosses to bear, Lord? Especially for such a young person. And in your case too!! You are a busy, loving mom! You are so passionate about Christ and adoption. Why another cross to bear?

    May she cling to verses like this one in Psalms on her journey. I will be praying. God is faithful even when we don't understand.


  113. Linny,
    I have been out of touch with blogging lately and your blog is one I alway go to first. I want you to know how much you mean to me even though we never met. I admire your courage, your strength, your outlook, your faith. I know all of these things come from God but we choose to use them and you do that so well. Even us faithful believers need someone like you to put a visual to all the words I used to describe you. It goes without saying you are in my prayers. Hey Jesus was very public! That is how we learned of His courage, His strength and when He needed prayer He had no problem asking! 😉 So we will.

  114. Praying for you and your family. I pray that the Lord will give you the desire of your heart and allow you to be well enough to bring more children home.

    To Him be the glory in all things

  115. Oh Bless you dear friend. I read you post awhile ago and have been praying non stop for you.

    I know how much you love the children and right away your thoughts go to those that you want to bring home. You are awesome- your faith is inspiring. He will not leave your side- lean on him.

    Praying for you, for healing, for comfort, for protection from the opposition, for strength and for the children that you so passionately desire!

    God Bless you, God Bless you

  116. Oh Linny, it is my privilege to pray for you and your family during this season. I so wish you did not have to experience this condition, however, I know God is going to be glorified through you, His faithful servant. I have clung to Psalm 91 through many uncertain, dark, and troubling times in my life. There were many nights when reading this psalm (aloud) over and over was the only way I could find peace before going to sleep at night. I prayed, read, and believed until the psalm became my truth.

    So I say to you and even rejoice with you now for the healing works God has done:

    v 14-16 …Linny has set her love upon God, therefore God will deliver her; God will set her on high, because she has known God's name. Linny shall call upon God, and He will answer her; He will be with her in trouble; He will deliver her and honor her. With long life God will satisfy Linny, and show her His salvation.

  117. you expressed this perfectly, linny. it's beautiful. i'm so sorry that about all of this, but i do know that your prayer can and will happen. He will not change, you will become more like Him and He will be glorified to many. i am praying for you every day and will continue. so much love to you.

  118. Lin – I have Graves Disease, which is an autoimmune disorder in which your immune system attacks the thyroid, making it over active. I even had the eye symptoms and the whole 9. I was on blood pressure meds at 25 years. I went through radiation that same year too.

    I say all that to tell you that I've been through something similar and am praying for you because I know it is a tough journey. But I am so grateful for the things God has taught me through the whole experience, things I never would have learned without the Graves Disease.

    I know you're not a stranger to auto-immune disorders but that doesn't make it any easier and I join the others in lifting you up in prayer.

    A verse that has been very precious to me during this time is 2 Corinthians 4:16-18. It's been a blessing to remember that these bodies are temporary and just meant to house us here until we get our new ones. Praise the Lord he's promised us a new one – ha.

  119. I'm praying for you Linny!! You are such a brave women even though it doesn't feel like it sometimes.

    I hope that you will check out the Gerson Therapy. It is a successful alternative cancer and chronic condition therapy.

  120. I completely missed this post. We were in the midst of a move at the time. Linny, praying for you as I type. Praying for God's healing and strength. Thanks for sharing your heart and letting us lift you up in prayer.


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