I had another blog post started today, but felt that there was someone out there in bloggy land who needed to read this instead.

It’s fresh.

It’s raw.

But I’m sharing it – anyway.

Sooooo…

The other day I realized something that made me stop
dead in my tracks.  

I would love to tell you it was one of those “yippee” moments…
but no, it was a “stop-dead-in-your-tracks-cause-you-just-realized-something-that-was-so-obvious-
but-yet-you-were-choosing-to-believe-the-best-and-
actually-just-might-have-been-kind-of-living-in-la-la-land” 
kind of stop.”   

UGH.

I hate those kind of moments.

I’m guessing I’m not alone either.

When the ‘reality’ you’ve been living in, is not really reality at all.

The pit of your stomach suddenly lands in your throat.

And after a few moments of staring into space with my mind reeling,
 I thought,  
“How could I have been so oblivious and missed that?”

Thoughts swim together, but floating most near the surface frequently is this:  “What should my response be?”

I’m human.

Just like you.

And a few thoughts whirled through my head:

“Okay.  Fine.  Then I’ll just….”  

and then I thought…

“That’s it…I’m done trying….”

And about that time I look up from the dishes I’m doing and see this:

Which my precious friend Megan made me 

and right then and there 

I read it 

over

and over

and over

and over

and realize there is only one thing to do.

Forgive them anyway.

Be kind anyway.

Be honest and sincere anyway.

Be happy anyway.

Do good anyway.

Case in the final analysis, it is between me and God.

It was never between me and ____ anyway.  

And peace floods my soul.

It’s okay.  

He’s got my back.

He will be honored. 

No matter what.

And I will rest in His favor when I do the right thing.