Dear Precious Friends Around the World,
So many of you have followed our family for many, many years now. I know a few have said that they began to Journey along as we were bringing Isaiah home. Others began stopping by Our Place right after we lost our home to the fire. Some are much newer friends. All of you, I am so grateful for – you truly have been an incredible blessing to me personally. The Lord knew how much I needed all of you.
Anyone hanging around at all knows how I believe in the power of prayer. Our astoundingly faithful God delights in working the miraculous when we humbly come to Him. We have seen Him do “above and beyond all we could think or ask” time after time after time and I have shared many of our Memorial Box stories here – proving over and over His incredible work in our lives.
Well, truthfully, this is way out of my comfort zone as I really prefer to keep myself and my needs out of the picture. However, I feel strongly that I am to share this because I know many of you truly love our family and you will understand the ramifications of this need. And I know many of you will earnestly pray with us.
Interestingly enough, on a side note, my word that I am studying this year is “trust”. Oh boy. What a word for this year on so many levels.
About six weeks ago I began to have pretty severe headaches. Those up close know I am not a headache person – ever. My eyes were also quite painful with the headaches and it all made me just want to lay down so I could shut my eyes. The stabbing pain in my eyes even on occasion woke me at night. I had no other symptoms. Around that time, although I didn’t correlate the two things, I began to have trouble seeing things that had been no problem to see a few weeks before. For instance, a pair of dark shoes on our dark wood floor were no longer very visible.
Moms of many will understand, we are not sitting around adding it all together. We are caring for sweet treasures whose lives are complicated and little thought is given to anything outside of their needs. Although the headaches were awful, I just went about life.
I began to wonder if it could be that I needed new glasses as it was increasingly harder to see things and the headaches were persisting.
Actually in February I had had a check-up with my optometrist and she had given me a new script. However CoVid hit, everything closed down and I was unable to fill the script. So a few weeks back I thought I should just go get my glasses filled with that script from February. In hind site, probably not my brightest move, but oh well – I figured it would be a quick and easy fix.
Two weeks later they arrived and the new glasses did not improve my vision – in fact the headaches became even more intense and my vision was now seeing double. Wearing them made me feel sick.
For the record, I’ve been wearing glasses (or contacts back in the day) since I was in second grade – so I am not a newbie in getting used to new glasses.
After attempting to just “gut it out” wearing the new glasses for 10 days (although my eyes felt worse) I made an appointment to go back to my optometrist for a re-check. After all, I reasoned maybe the glasses were accidentally made wrong. Since ten days of gutting it out hadn’t worked, while waiting for the next appointment to see my optometrist I went back to wearing my old glasses.
It took a couple of weeks to get in but finally this week I was able to go. She’s a precious woman who I have been seeing for a few years so she definitely knows me a bit.
It was an appointment that I wasn’t prepared for because I hadn’t really stopped to put it all together. She was shocked (literally) repeating three times, “This is really serious!” She found (and it was easy for me to realize) that something is truly wrong with my vision/eyes and that I have had rapid vision loss. I can no longer even see the largest letter on the screen with the corrective lens on. I couldn’t even tell there was anything there on the smaller letters – it looked like a blank space. She tried everything and ran a few (albeit limited) tests.
She knows I have MS and Sjorgren’s Syndrome as well as the other autoimmune disorders but it does not look like it is those causing this problem from the few tests she was able to run. She referred me immediately to an ophthalmologist and eye surgeon.
I have had zillions of eye exams since second grade and to not be able to even tell at all what the largest letters were blown up to their largest size with the corrective lens machine was alarming to my soul. I am one who is pretty good at denial, however, you can’t deny your eyes having a problem when you are trying to use them all day long!!
No doubt, I need my vision! I have a lot of short people who rely on me every single day and night to care for their needs – which is my greatest joy!
The good news is that obviously, none of this comes as a surprise to our powerful God. I’m so grateful to know that while we are all shocked, scared, dumbfounded and overwhelmed, He is definitely not. He has a good plan in it all, regardless of what things look like.
Not once, since I asked Him to come into my heart some-fifty-seven years ago has He ever let me down – He has been so very wonderful to me. I will trust (there’s that word again) Him now. I will choose to trust Him!
So here I am. Asking. Would you please pray for complete healing and restoration of this rapid vision loss? Would you pray for wisdom for the doctor on Monday? Would you please pray that God would restore my vision completely so that I can drive again? Would you pray that the vision loss does not continue?
And yes, it is very difficult to see my computer to type this. I’m so thankful I spent several years as a typist putting Dw through law school when we were first married. No surprise, even way back then, the Lord had being a typist as part of His plan that would help now.
Thank you my dear friends for praying…I am, again, indebted to you forever. xoxo